don't be shy.

Don't be shy, just let your feelings roll on by. Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there. Just lift your head, and let your feelings out instead. And don't be shy, just let your feeling roll on by. On by. You know love is better than a song. Love is where all of us belong. So don't be shy, just let your feelings roll on by. Don't wear fear or nobody will know you're there. You're there.

i can't decide. am i still the shy, mysterious girl i used to be? or am i different now? it's actually more than what i am; it's what i want to be. so many different people know me as someone who i might not nescessarily be. or else they know me as my dream. the problem is, those who know me as my dream don't really know me, and they make me not know myself. i can't keep up the act forever unless i change to be that way for everyone. i'm not sure what to do. but am i ever? no. it's just that i feel that there is so much competition in the world. i want everyone to like me, so i have to change myself to be like other people who are likeable, but i'll never be as good as being them as they are being themselves. i can't beat them, but i still try. it doesn't make sense for me to go on like i am. if i keep doing this, i'll just be absorbed into the superficial world as a clone with bits and pieces of everyone else. i won't be who i am. but i was thinking a few years ago, and i realized there is really no "yourself" unless you live your entire life sheilded from people and propaganda. if you lived in a forest, stark naked, with no people to influence you, you would probably be yourself. then again, since it seems like there is no true originality, i suppose the definition of that has altered to incorperate what today's idea of originality is, which doesn't really fit at all. every person has been influenced by humans and the media and everything else around them, besides things like nature and animals, since the day they were born. so all of those ideas are put into their minds and never really leave. all those ideas make their mind grow, but they grow with those given ideas. no one can make their own idea withought influences to guide it. people learn from experiencing things; they don't just know something. there has to be something that sparks the resolution. if i keep typing, i'll just go in a circle and start right back at the beginning of this. it's one big cycle. and it makes no sense, but yet, at the same time, it makes complete sense. depends on how you look at it. but looking at it will influence your own minds and will make you that small degree less of yourself (but as i was saying before... there is no "yourself"... see, i've already gone back to the beginning).